21 days

I have 21 days left before I move to Ireland. I honestly don't know if I am ready to live on my own, in addition into another country. So many questions constantly go through my mind. Three months ago I cried myself to sleep almost every night, knowing that when I saw goodbye to certain family members, it will be the last time I see them. Now, with 21 days ago, I cannot sleep through the night. I wake up at three or four in the morning to make lists of what I need to be done, or lie in bed just thinking of what I will be doing or who I will meet and if I will be happy. I think of all the stuff I am not able to do here without asking a lot of questions. I couldn't grow up here with my parents so close by.

Before I eft for Hamline my mom told me she was going to leave me alone for 6 weeks so I could adjust. A week and a half later she called and wanted to take me out for dinner then grocery shopping. Across the ocean I will do everything for myself. I will grow up. I will post more frequently once I'm settled.